Unreality

I don't want you praying,
Coming from you it won't mean anything,
Don't tell me you'll miss me,
Your lack of feeling is guaranteed,
I never expected anything from you anyway,
I remember I felt from the first day,
Or rather, what I didn't feel,
I knew that this relationship wouldn't be real.

Still I tried, gave it my best go.
Hard to hold it all together on my own.
If you never wanted to be a part of us,
Why did you relentlessly pursue my trust, my love?
I know really it was all about lust.
This illusion we weaved, seemed more like a dream
But dreams they never come true, they fade
Then die. Lost in the crush of the lost love.

You tell me you never meant for this,
You said  you wouldn't let it die,
You just said you weren't pissed,
I guess what I was living was just a lie,
And yet, I love you still,
Even if for you, I was just a cheap thrill,
I really just don't care about you any more,
I can tell you that you've rotted me to the core.

But your still there, the worm that wont leave.
Your covered in my love and tears,
After eating all my dreams.
You want me to be happy, You say that is your wish.
How can you expect my happiness when
You have us living like this?
Your love is like fake gold, sure it glitters
But it stains you green before it goes.

I really wish I could start to care now,
I guess it doesn't really matter anyhow,
So get out, get out of my life,
Get out of this thing that's only caused us strife,
Neither of us want it any more,
We'd both rather just wash up on shore,
The shores and beaches of the new,
A world where everything is anything but blue,